Its been two days you have not talked to me. I have sent you numerous sms and called u so many times.But you have not replied to me even once.Aren't you doing same thing what you complained about when the guy you loved left you.Only thing is you had many friends around you to take care of you but I have no one.
How can a person be so heartless?
The lady I fell in love with cannot be so rude.Its just not possible.You had promised me that you will never leave me.Why are you doing that now?
Friday, January 8, 2010
Friday, August 14, 2009
14th August
I dont know what to do.Its been months now when we had proper talk.You havent call in days.Its been long since you had chat with me.I called you today and almost begged you to talk to me and forgive me if I had done any mistake.I dont know what mistake I have done.After calling you I expected that you will meet me online at night.But I didnt get your missed call.I thought you wont come.I was sad.But later from Orkut I came to know that you were online and you didnt even cared to reply my mail or scrap me.You say that you hate all men but I find you hate only me and talk to everyone else.
Deep inside I am happy that atleast you enjoy talking to others.Same way how you used to enjoy talking to me.I wonder how come you have become so heartless.I cried so much but still your heart doesnt warm.I love you so much.After so pleading a person can accept and forgive even ones enemy.I just fail to understand.
I wonder you are the same girl that once was very caring.You used to say promise you wont leave me.Now you dont even talk to me.I cant explain how much pain I have in my heart.
I just pray to god you will come back to me.
Deep inside I am happy that atleast you enjoy talking to others.Same way how you used to enjoy talking to me.I wonder how come you have become so heartless.I cried so much but still your heart doesnt warm.I love you so much.After so pleading a person can accept and forgive even ones enemy.I just fail to understand.
I wonder you are the same girl that once was very caring.You used to say promise you wont leave me.Now you dont even talk to me.I cant explain how much pain I have in my heart.
I just pray to god you will come back to me.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
16th May
Yesterday I had a long talk with you on phone.First in past couple of weeks where you were not rude to me and in the end you told you miss me and you luv me.It becomes boring when someone keeps on repeating that he loves you.I fear that it must have become boring for you.But if you genuinely love that person it wont be boring.
I decide everyday that I wont say I luv u to u..but I cant help.It just comes out.
I send u SMS but I never get replies.
The response you give to a person or way you talk shows his position in your life.May be you think its routine that I send sms or may be you think that replying SMSes is not a big deal at all.But previously you used to reply me.That too as soon as possible.From past three weeks u didnt reply.
Everyone has friends.Good friends,ok ok friends and bad friends.
There are times when you get new friends,but that doesnt mean you should forget old ones.Ok let it be.May be I am asking for too much.
I sort of dont like my behaviour.Why am I having expectations from others?
There are people who are smart.They are loved by everyone and are centre of attraction.People and girls talk to them.They dont have to care whether the person they talk to feels good or bad.Because the person knows,these people are crazy after them and they will keep coming back or another reason may be he simply doesnt care.
Then there are people like me.We are not smart talkers or cute or handsome.I am already alone seeking company from others.I have to take care about others.If people who talk to me,they get angry then they wont return.People show me attitude,it hurts.But I have to bear that because I want to be with them.When they are hurt,I always stay ahead to take care of them.But when they seek happiness or want company I am not the priority.
Whether its college,work or any other social life,I often get down on knees and beg to have friendship.Life of loser is not easy.If I am a loser then that doesnt mean I am a bad man or I cannot be a good friend.
Sent u sms 2 hrs back but no replies from you.No point in waiting now.
Dont worry its just for few days.Then I will be used to it.
I have lived half of my life being ignored...it wont pain much.
I decide everyday that I wont say I luv u to u..but I cant help.It just comes out.
I send u SMS but I never get replies.
The response you give to a person or way you talk shows his position in your life.May be you think its routine that I send sms or may be you think that replying SMSes is not a big deal at all.But previously you used to reply me.That too as soon as possible.From past three weeks u didnt reply.
Everyone has friends.Good friends,ok ok friends and bad friends.
There are times when you get new friends,but that doesnt mean you should forget old ones.Ok let it be.May be I am asking for too much.
I sort of dont like my behaviour.Why am I having expectations from others?
There are people who are smart.They are loved by everyone and are centre of attraction.People and girls talk to them.They dont have to care whether the person they talk to feels good or bad.Because the person knows,these people are crazy after them and they will keep coming back or another reason may be he simply doesnt care.
Then there are people like me.We are not smart talkers or cute or handsome.I am already alone seeking company from others.I have to take care about others.If people who talk to me,they get angry then they wont return.People show me attitude,it hurts.But I have to bear that because I want to be with them.When they are hurt,I always stay ahead to take care of them.But when they seek happiness or want company I am not the priority.
Whether its college,work or any other social life,I often get down on knees and beg to have friendship.Life of loser is not easy.If I am a loser then that doesnt mean I am a bad man or I cannot be a good friend.
Sent u sms 2 hrs back but no replies from you.No point in waiting now.
Dont worry its just for few days.Then I will be used to it.
I have lived half of my life being ignored...it wont pain much.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
May 13th
Today you met me in morning and we had a chat.You told that you were not able to chat with me last night because you went to sleep.May be because you were tired.
In morning I saw your sms.First good sms after days.I trust you that you were really tired.Again you said that you need time to come back to normal.I dont know whether that will happen ever.
I want to tell you that even today at nights i cry sometimes when i rememeber you.But I dont want to bug you with that.what are u thinking and what is your state i dont know.This is the first time I fear sharing my views with you.If I share I fear you will think...Why the hell this guy is back of me?...Then you may start ignoring me.
Its true I miss you and want to talk to you all time.But that doesnt mean I want to kill your personal life.I have the feeling that you are alone and if u share your problems and thoughts you will be relieved.But you dont understand that.I always encouraged you to meet new people and have new friends.You forgot that.
I think I know whats going on your mind.I think you just miss that guy who has come back.You know he is a liar but you are weighing the option of being with him even though he wants to just use u.But me and XYZ are sort of hurdles to this warning you of the downfall.Because I know all that guys detail and have not shared with you that she is messing with a dangerous guy which lead to disgrace to your family.You dont want to talk to me that often and u talk rudely because simply you dont miss me.
I remember you telling me to show my face once when you wanted to logoff from messenger.That love doesnt exist today.
If she had openly told me that dear I want to have relationship with him...I would have shown u way on how to have relationship without being in problem.But you dont just share.I want to say thisto you but i dont coz if I am wrong you will mistake me and again our relation will be strain. Wished that guy had not come in your life till you had met me in Bangalore.
I know what has happened.
This girl was having not so happy married life.Married life was ok ok.Then this guy comes and shows her dreams.She never must have thought of such a dreamy relationship.He rose her expectations to high level.Its normal tendency of girls to miss the things that is not in her life and underestimate things that are there in life.So you unknowingly forgot that your Husband not only is loyal to you and loves you,he can take care of you.You are one of the luckiest women in world whose Husband doenst come home drunk and hits her, or he sleeps with women around dumping her.You forget that you can have sleep of peace because you knwo your husband is there to take care of u and your kid.
The romance part and love life that u dream is of only small value.But since u dont have it,you feel its very important.Many girls have destroyed their life by going behind flirtatious boys.
I love u very badly.I respect you.I know onething that if you will come in my arms and be with me for a week, your expectations will be reduced.I want to make you realise tht u have already what u want.I want to channelise love towards your husband.
When I die I want to stand proudly in front of god and say...god I saved a girl.
In morning I saw your sms.First good sms after days.I trust you that you were really tired.Again you said that you need time to come back to normal.I dont know whether that will happen ever.
I want to tell you that even today at nights i cry sometimes when i rememeber you.But I dont want to bug you with that.what are u thinking and what is your state i dont know.This is the first time I fear sharing my views with you.If I share I fear you will think...Why the hell this guy is back of me?...Then you may start ignoring me.
Its true I miss you and want to talk to you all time.But that doesnt mean I want to kill your personal life.I have the feeling that you are alone and if u share your problems and thoughts you will be relieved.But you dont understand that.I always encouraged you to meet new people and have new friends.You forgot that.
I think I know whats going on your mind.I think you just miss that guy who has come back.You know he is a liar but you are weighing the option of being with him even though he wants to just use u.But me and XYZ are sort of hurdles to this warning you of the downfall.Because I know all that guys detail and have not shared with you that she is messing with a dangerous guy which lead to disgrace to your family.You dont want to talk to me that often and u talk rudely because simply you dont miss me.
I remember you telling me to show my face once when you wanted to logoff from messenger.That love doesnt exist today.
If she had openly told me that dear I want to have relationship with him...I would have shown u way on how to have relationship without being in problem.But you dont just share.I want to say thisto you but i dont coz if I am wrong you will mistake me and again our relation will be strain. Wished that guy had not come in your life till you had met me in Bangalore.
I know what has happened.
This girl was having not so happy married life.Married life was ok ok.Then this guy comes and shows her dreams.She never must have thought of such a dreamy relationship.He rose her expectations to high level.Its normal tendency of girls to miss the things that is not in her life and underestimate things that are there in life.So you unknowingly forgot that your Husband not only is loyal to you and loves you,he can take care of you.You are one of the luckiest women in world whose Husband doenst come home drunk and hits her, or he sleeps with women around dumping her.You forget that you can have sleep of peace because you knwo your husband is there to take care of u and your kid.
The romance part and love life that u dream is of only small value.But since u dont have it,you feel its very important.Many girls have destroyed their life by going behind flirtatious boys.
I love u very badly.I respect you.I know onething that if you will come in my arms and be with me for a week, your expectations will be reduced.I want to make you realise tht u have already what u want.I want to channelise love towards your husband.
When I die I want to stand proudly in front of god and say...god I saved a girl.
May 12th
I dont have any one to share my feelings.Where can I go? You were the one in front of whom I used to cry and share my thoughts.Now when I need you the most you are not there.
How can I tell you that I miss you so much.I send you sms but you dont send replies.I give you a call but you get angry for no reason.Its been more than 10 days but you never listened to me.I wonder whether you even try to come near me.
I never expected in my dreams that you will do this to me.I dont understand till now what mistake I did.You hate me so much.You say you hate all men.But thts not true.You just hate me and talk rudely only to me.With everyone you talk nicely.You talked to your father...did u hate him too.You chatted with that guy 2 days back.But you said you cant help being nice to him.Even though you know very well what his intentions are and what he did to you.
It just simply bugs why will a girl hate a good friend. Even for no mistake of his. You give reason that you want to be alone and dont want to talk to any guy.But you talk to people and talk nicely.Even to the person whom you say have done bad to you.
Actually people talk rude to others for a logic. Its like this,if u have respect for a person or you dont want to lose a person you will never talk rudely to him.Yes,if you take person for granted and dont care if the person is happy or not;you will be rude. You simply dont care if he leaves in anger.
Its sort of a need.You will never dare to talk to him like you talk to me for simple reason deep down you know he wont care for you and leave you. Fine you love him,but that doesnt mean you be rude to others.
Slowly slowly I am losing hope. I pray to god that he doesnt snatch you from me.I never asked for any thing...just a bit of love and your time,for which I have craved all my life.
How can I tell you that I miss you so much.I send you sms but you dont send replies.I give you a call but you get angry for no reason.Its been more than 10 days but you never listened to me.I wonder whether you even try to come near me.
I never expected in my dreams that you will do this to me.I dont understand till now what mistake I did.You hate me so much.You say you hate all men.But thts not true.You just hate me and talk rudely only to me.With everyone you talk nicely.You talked to your father...did u hate him too.You chatted with that guy 2 days back.But you said you cant help being nice to him.Even though you know very well what his intentions are and what he did to you.
It just simply bugs why will a girl hate a good friend. Even for no mistake of his. You give reason that you want to be alone and dont want to talk to any guy.But you talk to people and talk nicely.Even to the person whom you say have done bad to you.
Actually people talk rude to others for a logic. Its like this,if u have respect for a person or you dont want to lose a person you will never talk rudely to him.Yes,if you take person for granted and dont care if the person is happy or not;you will be rude. You simply dont care if he leaves in anger.
Its sort of a need.You will never dare to talk to him like you talk to me for simple reason deep down you know he wont care for you and leave you. Fine you love him,but that doesnt mean you be rude to others.
Slowly slowly I am losing hope. I pray to god that he doesnt snatch you from me.I never asked for any thing...just a bit of love and your time,for which I have craved all my life.
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