May 13th

Today you met me in morning and we had a chat.You told that you were not able to chat with me last night because you went to sleep.May be because you were tired.
In morning I saw your sms.First good sms after days.I trust you that you were really tired.Again you said that you need time to come back to normal.I dont know whether that will happen ever.
I want to tell you that even today at nights i cry sometimes when i rememeber you.But I dont want to bug you with that.what are u thinking and what is your state i dont know.This is the first time I fear sharing my views with you.If I share I fear you will think...Why the hell this guy is back of me?...Then you may start ignoring me.
Its true I miss you and want to talk to you all time.But that doesnt mean I want to kill your personal life.I have the feeling that you are alone and if u share your problems and thoughts you will be relieved.But you dont understand that.I always encouraged you to meet new people and have new friends.You forgot that.

I think I know whats going on your mind.I think you just miss that guy who has come back.You know he is a liar but you are weighing the option of being with him even though he wants to just use u.But me and XYZ are sort of hurdles to this warning you of the downfall.Because I know all that guys detail and have not shared with you that she is messing with a dangerous guy which lead to disgrace to your family.You dont want to talk to me that often and u talk rudely because simply you dont miss me.
I remember you telling me to show my face once when you wanted to logoff from messenger.That love doesnt exist today.

If she had openly told me that dear I want to have relationship with him...I would have shown u way on how to have relationship without being in problem.But you dont just share.I want to say thisto you but i dont coz if I am wrong you will mistake me and again our relation will be strain. Wished that guy had not come in your life till you had met me in Bangalore.

I know what has happened.

This girl was having not so happy married life.Married life was ok ok.Then this guy comes and shows her dreams.She never must have thought of such a dreamy relationship.He rose her expectations to high level.Its normal tendency of girls to miss the things that is not in her life and underestimate things that are there in life.So you unknowingly forgot that your Husband not only is loyal to you and loves you,he can take care of you.You are one of the luckiest women in world whose Husband doenst come home drunk and hits her, or he sleeps with women around dumping her.You forget that you can have sleep of peace because you knwo your husband is there to take care of u and your kid.
The romance part and love life that u dream is of only small value.But since u dont have it,you feel its very important.Many girls have destroyed their life by going behind flirtatious boys.

I love u very badly.I respect you.I know onething that if you will come in my arms and be with me for a week, your expectations will be reduced.I want to make you realise tht u have already what u want.I want to channelise love towards your husband.
When I die I want to stand proudly in front of god and say...god I saved a girl.